Ending Relationships

Even the most destructive relationships, that need to be ended, do not end well, it still seems like a funeral, we say goodbye, and think of all the times we shared, even though we have been scared, saying goodbye is still painful. When we have had a long friendship of some sort, everything, every place, every act, every piece in time seems to relate to the person we no longer see in some way. We know that what’s happening is for the best, it’s just that we don’t want to deal with the transitional period. We want to go from having them play a great role in our life, to feeling as though they never existed or we never met. We wish to leave them behind, without leaving a hole where they once were. Yet we can not do this. We can not change the past. But if we could, would we? Would we go back, and live without this terrorizing relationship? How would that change our world? If we never had to deal with the hardship, would we appreciate what we have? Would we feel the same about new, better relationships? Would we even be in them? And would it be worth it, or has this path, through destruction and grief been worth it, have we landed where we want to? If we could take it all back, take back all the bad, but it also take back all the grand, could we?