Unexpected Change

A change of any sort can leave us reeling, even an expected positive one. Like when we move out of a dodgy aria into a nicer one, we still miss our friends and find ourselves trying to adjust to a new view of the world. Or even smaller changes, like the change of venue of a local hang out, even though we expect it, it takes some adjusting to. But what really rocks us is the unexpected change, the sudden shock, the (sometimes late) realization just that things are different now, right now, with no time to prepare for it. Suddenly we find that a loved one has passed, and we will never see them again, and weather we realize what that means straight away or not the grief of it grips us so much tighter than when an elderly or long sick loved one passes away. But this sudden shock, this change of the world can happen the other way too, one moment we feel alone and unwanted in this universe, like no one could ever love us, and there is no one we could trust to try and love ourselves the next we meet someone who seems special, who seems so different, who seems just perfect, and our world is turned on its head, joy is something we not only recognize but are filled with. And whether it happens all at once or grows over time, we realize that love is so much the stronger when find it unexpectedly, after we had no hope of ever having some ourselves, only to find ourselves overflowing with it.